I took the time today to re-read a chapter out of a book I got a couple months ago called “Simply Tuesday” by Emily Freeman. She writes, “I say I have faith, things hoped for but not seen, but when I really burrow down deep into my soul, I wonder. Faith doesn’t mean waiting for understanding or clarity. Faith means trusting God in the midst of misunderstanding and lack of clarity.”
She goes on to say, and this is my favorite line, “Sometimes faith feels like nothing.”
Why is this my favorite line you ask? Well thank you kind stranger let me elaborate. Over the years I have confused the word clarity with the word peace. I have caught myself time and time again asking God during prayer for clarity on pop ups in my life. Yes, I call them pop ups, why? Because they’re messy, and get in the way of my ultimate goal either by slowing down the process or freezing up my timeline. Isn’t it frustrating? It’s easy to blame God for letting things in the way or what you’re working towards. Anyway, I was begging for answer after answer on what he wanted me to do. Sometimes I just want God to flash a big sign that says, “GO THIS WAY ALLY!” or “WATCH OUT”.
Which pegs the question, if I’m waiting for a green light from God, what does that look like? For me, I have come to the conclusion that sometimes, my green light, comes from sitting. I’ll repeat that line again, “Sometimes faith feels like nothing.” I’m not trying to be cliché or go all Carrie Underwood on you folks, but Jesus please take the wheel. I find the most “CLARITY” and I’m using that word right now, from just sitting and giving it all to God in the midst of my struggles.
One of my favorite stories of the Bible comes from Luke 10:38, and it’s the story of Martha and Mary.
“As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”
But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Raise your hand if you’ve found yourself being more like Martha than Mary! *insert sassy girl emoji* Time and time again I’ve found that I have a hard time just sitting down with God soaking in His word. It’s become almost as if we want God to work and move in our life but only in big ways. I want him to speak to me, but I want it to be dramatic. Where is my message sent through a burning bush? It becomes unfair when we hear of God working in other peoples lives when we feel like we’ve done everything we can do and ask of God and we feel as though they haven’t been as faithful. But have you sat down with Him? Have you sat in silence and just listened and meditated on his word? Or do you wake up in the morning and open Facebook and indulge in the word of your peers? Hey, I’m guilty. Ask my fiancé, I have trouble getting off of my social media too.
If we as Christians don’t take time away from our busy lives to meditate on His word, how will we know when He is speaking to us? Priscilla Shirer says, “The more scripture you have hidden in your heart, the more opportunity He will have to bring it to your mind and direct you. Our goal should be to saturate ourselves in His word.” Be a biblical sponge. Absorb as much of His glory and truth as you can.
I know what you’re thinking.. how the heck did she end up talking about scripture AGAIN when we were supposed to be determining what a green light looked like? But my friend, that’s just it. Spend your time reading scripture and learning how to discern God’s voice instead of convincing yourself that you feel peace about a situation so it “must” be God. There is no probably or maybe with God. He IS the way, the truth, and the life.
So get off of Facebook, take a break from your busy schedule, and sit down on a park bench. Get out your bible. Listen to the words He spoke, to the lessons He taught and the miracles he created. You are one of them darling.
“Colossians 3:15 says that the peace of God should rule our hearts, not our circumstances. We can’t depend on what our circumstances say to determine what God is doing. We must always look inward first and move according to the Holy Spirit’s witness in accordance with God’s Word. When peace rules in our hearts we can confidently move forward regardless of what external circumstances look or feel like and regardless of what others say.”
God is your green light. So go.
peace and blessings XOXOX