Green Light

I took the time today to re-read a chapter out of a book I got a couple months ago called “Simply Tuesday” by Emily Freeman. She writes, “I say I have faith, things hoped for but not seen, but when I really burrow down deep into my soul, I wonder. Faith doesn’t mean waiting for understanding or clarity. Faith means trusting God in the midst of misunderstanding and lack of clarity.”

She goes on to say, and this is my favorite line, “Sometimes faith feels like nothing.”

Why is this my favorite line you ask? Well thank you kind stranger let me elaborate. Over the years I have confused the word clarity with the word peace. I have caught myself time and time again asking God during prayer for clarity on pop ups in my life. Yes, I call them pop ups, why? Because they’re messy, and get in the way of my ultimate goal either by slowing down the process or freezing up my timeline. Isn’t it frustrating? It’s easy to blame God for letting things in the way or what you’re working towards. Anyway, I was begging for answer after answer on what he wanted me to do. Sometimes I just want God to flash a big sign that says, “GO THIS WAY ALLY!” or “WATCH OUT”.

Which pegs the question, if I’m waiting for a green light from God, what does that look like? For me, I have come to the conclusion that sometimes, my green light, comes from sitting. I’ll repeat that line again, “Sometimes faith feels like nothing.” I’m not trying to be cliché or go all Carrie Underwood on you folks, but Jesus please take the wheel. I find the most “CLARITY” and I’m using that word right now, from just sitting and giving it all to God in the midst of my struggles.

One of my favorite stories of the Bible comes from Luke 10:38, and it’s the story of Martha and Mary.

“As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”
But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Raise your hand if you’ve found yourself being more like Martha than Mary! *insert sassy girl emoji* Time and time again I’ve found that I have a hard time just sitting down with God soaking in His word. It’s become almost as if we want God to work and move in our life but only in big ways. I want him to speak to me, but I want it to be dramatic. Where is my message sent through a burning bush? It becomes unfair when we hear of God working in other peoples lives when we feel like we’ve done everything we can do and ask of God and we feel as though they haven’t been as faithful. But have you sat down with Him? Have you sat in silence and just listened and meditated on his word? Or do you wake up in the morning and open Facebook and indulge in the word of your peers? Hey, I’m guilty. Ask my fiancé, I have trouble getting off of my social media too.

If we as Christians don’t take time away from our busy lives to meditate on His word, how will we know when He is speaking to us? Priscilla Shirer says, “The more scripture you have hidden in your heart, the more opportunity He will have to bring it to your mind and direct you. Our goal should be to saturate ourselves in His word.” Be a biblical sponge. Absorb as much of His glory and truth as you can.

I know what you’re thinking.. how the heck did she end up talking about scripture AGAIN when we were supposed to be determining what a green light looked like? But my friend, that’s just it. Spend your time reading scripture and learning how to discern God’s voice instead of convincing yourself that you feel peace about a situation so it “must” be God. There is no probably or maybe with God. He IS the way, the truth, and the life.

So get off of Facebook, take a break from your busy schedule, and sit down on a park bench. Get out your bible. Listen to the words He spoke, to the lessons He taught and the miracles he created. You are one of them darling.

“Colossians 3:15 says that the peace of God should rule our hearts, not our circumstances. We can’t depend on what our circumstances say to determine what God is doing. We must always look inward first and move according to the Holy Spirit’s witness in accordance with God’s Word. When peace rules in our hearts we can confidently move forward regardless of what external circumstances look or feel like and regardless of what others say.”

God is your green light. So go.

peace and blessings XOXOX



Just my Luck

“The truth is my slowness is not a fault or a sin, but fighting it might be. I tend to think my limitations are my burdens but perhaps they are actually my gifts if I’m willing to see them that way.”    – Simply Tuesday by Emily Freeman

I’ve found myself lately yelling out “Just my Luck” every time I don’t get the results I want. It might have started somewhere in junior high when I had to run the mile and I couldn’t even run it in 12 minutes. How embarrassing right? Every kid in my class was watching as I huffed and puffed my way around the track and I FAILED. How was it so easy for all of them? As immature as it sounds, I blamed God. How come they all got to be created athletic and I got thick gymnastic legs and smoker lungs?!

That may sound insane but I bet you do it. You get frustrated with what God has given you when you see what he’s given your neighbor. Proverbs 16:9 says “We can make our own plans, but the Lord determines our steps.” I have my days where I know that I am not in control. When I watch person after person excel in life and I just cry out asking God why he would want me here of all places? It’s hard to see what He has given you when all you want to focus on is what he hasn’t.

Moses was 80 before he saw the burning bush and was called on by God. For 80 years God was equipping him with characteristics that would one day be utilized. Take a look at Jeremiah; he had no money, no family, no friends, and he was ignored by the people of Judah. We all look at ourselves sometimes and think of how much better life would be if we had more of those things. It’s easy to get caught up in “Well if I just had more…… I would be happy.” But though Jeremiah had nothing to offer it seemed to his peers, he had so much to offer to God. In his obedience, faithfulness, and righteousness he was a success in the Lord’s eyes.

Do you ever take a second everyday to offer your masterpieces and your MESSES to God? For years, I was bitter about circumstances in my life until I realized that I had been instilled such patience towards people because of it. I’m talking.. “10 minutes late for work but still let the other car out in front of me” patient. And what a blessing it is to know that my messes and my circumstances were stepping stones God used to equip me for works of art in the future.

Here is a prayer from the book I quoted above, Print this out or write it on an index card and tape it to your mirror. Remind yourself everyday that you are unique for a reason.

“We confess our tendency to look for our identity in every face but yours. We long to know how we measure up compared to someone else. Take our comparison and give us compassion, for others as well as for ourselves. Reveal to us our eight-foot assignments and remind us that we aren’t responsible to control the world, only to bring the cares of those eight feet into your capable hands. Help us to embrace the shape of our own design, being ever mindful that you have made us as we are even as we are being transformed into your likeness. May we stop trying to wring out our own brand of humanity. Rather may we trust you to show yourself through our unique personalities.”

peace and blessings XOXO